Last day of 2014... Will you spend this day fruitfully? Will you be happy? Sad? Going crazy about what's going to happen in 2015? Curious about what's life like be in 2015?
To be very honest, I am hoping 2015 would never come. I'm leaving my secondary school. Leaving all my classmates. Saying goodbye to all my juniors in Secondary school. If you ask me if I'll be sad to leave Primary school, I'll tell you straight that I'm thankful I'm leaving that school. But if you ask me if I'll be sad leaving Secondary school, I'll tear and tell you I'm not ready to leave them.
This year was a very memorable year for me. I got closer with all my friends and I get to know my second EC, creating more memories that I could ever have. All the laughter, cryings and rage matters will not be forgotten. Talking about regrets, hmm... Major regrets is just not studying hard enough.
Speaking the truth, I find that I'm not close to any of my classmates. Just feel that I'm a social butterfly. Didn't really have a specific clique to stick with. I may be a pistachio (in chinese 开心果 means someone who brings happiness) to them, but how I actually feel inside, no one knows. I just want a little more attention from you girls, a friendship that means a lot to every single one of you. One asked me before we graduate, "Will we still keep in touch after we graduate?" I said straight without thinking " of course because you mean a lot to me" And I've been waiting for her text every time. So I made the first move, I told her what she told me before school ended. I told her I was very disappointed, I've kept my promise, but she didn't. And now she began to text me once in awhile. Glad.
In this year, I feel that I'm very self-centered, haven't thought of how people would feel, and wanted them to go my own way. Kinda selfish. I'll try to change.
In 2015, I'll pray that everything will go the way I want to be. PRAYING HARD! Getting my results in January, entering new school in April. To be honest I'm not ready! I don't want 2015 to come. I'm scared. I'm afraid my class wouldn't be as awesome as this year's. I'm afraid of meeting new friends. Afraid of getting lost in a new school. Afraid of not getting the course I'm always dreaming about. Tons and tons of things I'm not ready and afraid of. But I know I have to face it anyway, no point avoiding, the more you avoid it, the more it will come closer to you. I know I can't get through the upcoming challenges myself. My guardian angel, please guide me along... May 2015 be a nice year and make me smile my way through...
All the best readers, may 2015 be a better year. Happy New Year!
